Intimacy

I’ve been struck with a fear
So Godly and Holy
Terrified of the cost
Of continually holding
All the things in my life
Which make You take second place
God take them away

I’ve been chasin’ the wind
Trying hard to win
A race I was never meant to run
Seeking for selfish gain
All the while using Your name
As a stool to stand upon
To hear mine proclaimed 

So many wasted days
I’ve spent living for the dream
Seeking a life of comfort
No matter what the means  
So many wasted days
I’ve spent living for the dream
Until I finally realized
That life isn’t what it seems

"Enlighten my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death” (Ps. 13:3)

Right now you are very muh awake. Your using your eyes to read each letter that I wrote which your brain is automatically turning into words as your brain is instantly recalling words from the thousands stored up in the word bank of your brain. You’re following the flow of my writing as I’m using words to form sentences, and sentences to form paragraphs of completed thoughts.

But do you know that even as you’re reading this and your externally senses are awake it’s still very possible for you to be asleep in the place that it matters most? Your heart.

My journey with songwriting
My real desire to play music started when I was nine and it began with drum lessons. Shortly after this I began playing drums on worship team at church. Let me just say, it wasn’t pretty! It took a while for me to develop and unfortunately it was mostly done while playing on Sunday mornings! Things eventually improved and it became somewhat bearable to listen to me play. At the age of 12 my dad started teaching me some guitar chords and I fell in love with the guitar! It was so amazing to me to have an outlet of creativity and being able to write songs. I remember being so excited every time I would learn a new chord. It wasn’t until many years later that I saw why the Lord gave me a desire and love for music!

Do you ever feel like your passion and zeal for the Lord or vision for your life is a million miles away and a distant memory from yesterday? Do you ever wonder why many times you can go to bed feeling completely fine but then wake up just a few hours later feeling completely uninspired about your relationship with the Lord and somewhat despaired or confused about life in general?

These kinds of feelings and emotions are tricky because many times these feelings come from an attack of the enemy, or maybe unrepentant sin, or because the Holy Spirit is gently tugging on our hearts saying, “Hey, it’s been a while since you’ve talked to me and that’s why you’re feeling this way!” However, there are also time’s when we just feel that way simply because that’s the way life is!!